That's the thing about the goddess cannabis: she is patient, and she'll wait for us to see things from her perspective. My second year of growiing was when I started "falling in love" with the plant, so my whole relationship to the grow changed.
I remember feeling like you do now: there's so much we have to learn, and we're so worried about doing it right. It takes a few grows under one's belt to start to feel more confident about what we're doing, but it's never too early to start learning how to let her lead the way. ;-}
Just my 2 cents' worth of philosophy...