Well all I can say is at least you aren't relying on plants as food to keep you alive till next year. Those little buggers have destroyed many a civilizations over the course of history. They can lay waste to everything in their path leaving all other living things to starve. It really sucks that you are dealing with this. Here over the last 20 years I have lost massively due to floods and lack of rain. I have lost houses to hurricanes on the coast. And lost my health due to men. Each has just been a stepping stone to build my mind and make me better. It hurts now but I promise it will all get better. Maybe a vacation, a long trip, time away is what God, Karma, or whatever you believe in is trying to tell you to do. I've learned the hard way that when whatever you believe in is telling you something you better listen. Because eventually they will speak loud enough for you to hear.
Sorry if that is way to deep for this board. Just a few things I've learned from life.